7.30.2010

My dear blog,

There has been so much happening: too many thoughts to put into words, too many emotions to make you feel...the inside of my mind is chaotic. Well, it has been since college started.

I TRULY MISS YOU.

I miss writing creatively. :( I'm not even sure if I still have that talent inside me. (HA!)

My last post brought tragic news (with a terrible picture to match! :o) and I just don't want that to be the first thing I see and read when I view my blog.

School has been hectic but I am enjoying it. Terribly (and I mean that in a good way). Sure, the load gets heavy sometimes (in ways I do not expect it to be) but, it's all really lovely. I'm enjoying what I'm doing because it's truly something I have passion for: fashion! (I'm a Clothing Technology freshman.) All our activities are founded on that particular subject and there have been times when it doesn't feel like schooling at all! However, there are still group works and research and plates, of course; which reminds me that you are studying Aien. They're technically academics you have to pour your energy on...Ha!

I blogged in our group blog recently:

After a week or two of investing our time in our CT11 Research Paper and Interview of a Fashion Designer, we are finally moving on to our next lesson, Design.

It’s really exciting since just by the term itself, you could already visualize a lot of creativity and inspirations involved. And I’m a sucker for those two things! (Hee.)

Our new topic was introduced today, during our CT11 class. Ma’am Kitty discussed the definition of design, its types, elements, and principles. Later into the lesson, we talked about the fashion designer!

What does it take to be a fashion designer?

The list of characteristics was sure long but, luckily, I had most of it in me (yabang!). HAHAHA. And luckily, I’d still have those skills and traits by the time I graduate (and even have become better at that!).

Woohoo. I cannot wait! *squeals*

Thinking about the future, do you want to know what kind of fashion designer I want to be?

It was in second year when I had an epiphany (ayun na). My vision was to stylize the Philippine mass. I wanted to help each individual realize their own style and therefore, through their clothing, express who they really are, what consists them, their culture and personality.

Isn’t that exciting when the Philippines finally realize their fashion potential? (Am I making sense?).

Anyway, my goal was to bring fashion, but moreover, style, to the mass. I know that may sound scary for some but look at it as a great equalizer. HAHAHA. I’d really like each and every person who walks the streets and alleys of the Philippines to have fashion and style consciousness. It will just be amazing to walk around our country (HAHAHA. I just imagined that you’d literally walk from one place to anywhere you want to go even if it’s islands away or something…) and observe the people bring out their inner selves through clothing, won’t it?

Okay, I’m beating around the bush…HAHAHA.

So in conclusion, I want to be casual wear/ready-to-wear fashion designer! At present, I really do not see myself as a formal wear designer. I mean, I do love gowns and looking at them is such a spectacle most times but, I don’t see myself designing this kind of clothing. I really prefer casual wear; the kind you can wear everyday and through which express your individuality (I really have a knack for this sort of thing. HAHAHAHA). I guess from these reasons you could assume that I also want to be an indie designer.

I really have never thought of that concept before since indie style seems to apply to the genre of film and music but since those two are one of my biggest influences and inspirations at the moment, I say that I do want to be an indie designer as well. However, it seems to be contrary with my earlier decision to “bring fashion and style to the masses” since indietends to be known only by a small group of people. It’s not exactly mainstream. That’s also interesting since I want to be sought after (HAHAHA. That sounds so conceited!). What I meant by that was, I want people to discover me, rather. And come to know me as this designer who caters to the masses but brings something edgy, quirky, eccentric, and indie to the clothing racks.

I really wish I’ve explained myself well here with regards to what kind of fashion designer I want to be. Hee.

But, I’m open to future changes. Who knows, some event might actually change my point of view at present and suddenly incline me to formal wear designing?